fluxhavoc

It's been six years since I've been a deviant member. Phew! Time flies. I've just done some house-cleaning and have gotten rid of a bunch of embarrassing old artworks. Hopefully I'll get more chances to produce "art" in the near future. Recently my world have been revolving entirely around programming. This wouldn't be the perfect place to post works like that. Got a big project coming up that I'm real proud of. Will post screenshots or artwork in the near future.

Recently I've been shifting between being lonley, being happy, being content, being angry, being hated, being depressed, and being me. I don't know where my life is going to take me after college, but if these two hands can do their work, they better damn well accomplish everything I've ever dreamed of. The battle has just begun...

Sometimes I feel lucky. Sometimes I feel scared. My parents are getting older. I can sense it, in the way they talk to each other, in the way the clumsily forget things, and other symptoms of aging. It's sad, I don't want to see them changed. The inevitibility of death looms just around the corner. As a matter of fact, it looms every time I look at them. Last night I had some bad case of indigestion. We're not sure yet how exactly I got it. It was bad... my stomach was swelling a few hours after I ate, and eventually I threw up. I feel like shit today. Happy new years.